One day at a time...

Since Thanksgiving, Mother has made a quick decline. It's as if she was determined to hold on until that holiday with her family and, since then, she has been too tired to maintain that pace. Ironically, Dad has also had a decline.  His is not as visibly apparent as Mom's.  The Hospice nurse is always very positive about how well Mom looks,  how amazing she is and how Mom is her "poster child", but, today, when the nurse came, she took me aside and said how drastically Mom has declined since she saw her on Friday.  It's pretty scary how quickly things can change.  

Mom is comfortable on her morphine.  Her issue does not seem to be pain, praise God, it is mostly loss of short-term memory, seeing things and people that are not there, loss of appetite, severe loss of more weight, issues directly related to the position of the tumor in her pancreas, etc. A good bit of the time, especially in the afternoons, she is sharp as a tack, but, since last Thursday, those times are getting further apart and what fills the spaces are times of total weakness, so weak she can hardly talk or finish expressing a thought, very short memory, and a fine line between what is in her dreams and thoughts and what is reality.  We are all very gentle with her and keep her safe and secure.  We are so, so blessed to have caretakers who truly care for Mom and Dad and whom we can trust to comfort them if one of us kids is not there.    

I am appealing to each of you to pray for God's mercy for both Mom and Dad.  “Again I say to you, that if two of you agree on earth about anything that they may ask, it shall be done for them by My Father who is in heaven. For where two or three have gathered together in My name, I am there in their midst.” Matthew 18: 19-20  

Dad "told" me today that he is ready to go to Heaven.  No doubt that he and Mom wish they could go together; they have told me that as recently as today.  Of course, that is not in our hands.  I reassured them and I have no doubt that our precious Lord has a perfect plan for them.  Jeremiah tells us that God knows His plan for us. Proverbs also tells us that the Lord establishes our steps. As always, we take this one day at a time. 

So don't be anxious about tomorrow. God will take care of your tomorrow too. Live one day at a time."  Matthew 6:34

 Amen!